Taipei

Yea im leaving for Taipei tmr... dun really have the excited or look forward to mood but think i will still enjoy the trip ba... My Mum, Bian Bian Lian, Hui Ge Lin and Gal Next Door all very worried i wun be back... so in order for them to help me cont blogging, I decided to pass them my password...

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If I really dun make it back... Please miss me and help me cont blogging... Cya all next wk~!!!!! lolz

SOO SWEEETTTT~!!!!!

Fri nite I went off without telling Good Gal again... My fren not in good mood dun wanna wait for me and went out goto go after him... The next day Good Gal call me when she wake up ask if im ok~!!! Her voice sound so sweet and gentle... Give me a very diff feel from her sia~!!! ARAG I MISS TAT MOMENT~!!!

Letting it out..???

Last wed dunno wat happen to me... Was feeling very frustrated and fan but dunno over wat.. maybe too many things on my mind already til i dunno wat to sort out first... The Woman ask me go drink and we meet around 830... I ask Bern to come cos onli me and her like a bit weird and he told me he busy at work will try come asap... Yea another drinking session and after The Woman went hm, we went to Good Gal's place and cont second round since the rest are there..


Bern finally told me wat happen to him the other day... Wow it bring more thoughts to me... Over the pass few wks i really feel like crying everything out but tears just wun drop.. Every morn i can onli c tears dropping when i wear my contact lens.. hahah tat's the lens solution not my tears.. We drank more and more and i also start to think more and more... Beginning to feel so confuse and this time tears really drop~!!! SHIT wrong place for the moment... Dun wanna scare Good Gal so I went out and slowly one by one they came after me... By den i wasn't really listening to wat they were saying to me already... they kept asking me wat happen and whether izzit this or tat... It is only when Bern say this i realise i shld stop and go hm... “我们认识这么多年了，看到你哭我也会很难过。。。”


The next day Good Gal ask me whether am I drunk last nite... she wanna say bye to me but i dunno go where liao... i told her i was sobbing outside...

The Defining Moment

Watching this show somehow remind me of me and Good Gal... We r like Jiaming and Kexin like tat.. Im always trying to noe how she feel towards me but she seems to be always avoiding... Somehow i feel tat she did make an effort and is better to me den last time but she just dun wan tell me how she feel towards me... Tat day Ling Ling join us go drink and she sit beside me.. think cos she super long no go down wif us already Good Gal forget she got come before... She actually ask me who is tat gal~!!! But i also dunno is she jealous or just curious who is tat gal... Haiz....

Drink... Drank... Drunk...

Had been drinking since last tue to fri... tot everything will end last wk but yest Bern's turn to be down... Haiz we were chatting happily den he suddenly jio me drink... think these 2 wks the amount of alcohol taken was so much more den water intake lor... everyone seems so down lately tot im the onli one... anw he dun wan to tell me wat happen think onli thing i can do is to drink wif him ba... TAAA~!!!! I always tell them if im sad PLS really drink wif me therefore im treating them the same way as i wanted them to treat me... actually lately im down and sad also but maybe cos im drinking wif them already, seeing them drunk til like this i somehow dun wish to knock out... try to control myself not to drink so much but yest really nearly gone~!!! long time no super high already... hahah but im impress wif myself sia... hm still can rem to remove my contact lens... put my rings in place... change... la la la la la...

Took cab hm wif Good Gal after the drinking session... at tat point of time i already super high liao... some things i also forget already just rem i like keep on toking and asking her things til she say i very noisy ask me keep quiet... hahaha but i ignore her cont tok to her... ask her to take pic think she c i too shack she say she take.. 1st time took pic wif her in cab... my face like damn Sei lor... think we took 3 times den she deleted away the 1st 2... i still can tell her dun delete... we tok quite a lot yest... dunno wat will happen in future... dunno wat im doing is worth while anot... onli time will tell ba... now i tell myself if she hurt me i wun drink like mad... but who noes... emotional always overrule rational for me... anw no more drinking liao~!!! ARAG~!!!!

The Woman just sms me ask me tmr go drink~!!!! SHIT all my frens really take me as Jiu Gui