Excessive???

IM NOT EXCESSIVE DRINKER~!!! After reading this guide i finally can conclude tat IM UNDER CONTROL~!!! started to drink a bit again... still cannot decide wad i shld do... the dark mood is back... but as usual, y izzit the more i drink the more unhappy i gets??? haiz.... think cos i haven drink enough yet... if I finish this will my father faint or will he jux open another bottle??? hmm...

Lousy week

Had a very tired, moody and unhappy week... Dunno y it jux seems to happen every day now... Really makes me wonder izzit my prob... so i told myself no matter wad i will not be moody or unhappy today... but the biggest impact actually came today~!!! There are so many questions, so many why in me... Maybe i shld jux accept the fact... though i really feel very sad abt it, think i shld really try to change...

你死定了！！！

hahahah i like it when she say this line... somehow it reminds me of something.. wad actually is it i dun really noe... but is something sweet tat lies in my heart... hmm wad is the thing tat this line is triggering???

为设么要望记一个人会这么难？上天为设么要这样折磨我？

就算全世界的人反对我们，我也要跟你在一起。。。

不是我不想拥有，是我不能。。。

放弃我。。。

These are some of the sentences tat bring tots and memories to me... has been some time since a show can affect me tat much... and it reminds me of something... something which last time i always thought of but never do... 把回忆埋葬... going back to places and reminisces of the happy moments... after which i will forget abt tat person... hahaha but it seems to be like wad i tot.. i will not forget... instead i will jux miss tat person more... 我好想你喔!!! tmr mux find more pictures of Cheng Lin's image in this show... it really reminds me of someone!!!!

海派甜心

My Cheng Lin is so so so cool, cute and chio in this show~!!!! hahahh wanted to watch this show cos of her... Never expect tat it will bring me so much thoughts... hmm think Gal Next Door noe i very long no drink le tat's y lend me this show... Got one scene of her drinking and she said this:

“喝就可以望记很多事情。。。不开心的事情。。。”

It seems to be so lately... My purpose of drinking is no longer to chill anymore... Either getting ppl drunk or i get drunk myself... But den... the more i drink the more unhappy i gets... hahaha onli when others get drunk im happier... izzit cos they give me entertainment??? or did they divert my attention when they r drunk... anw i like this sentence very much... Show said this to my Cheng Lin:

“我喜欢你，你明明不是我心目中喜欢那样的女生，可是。。。我就是喜欢你！”

Wow!!!! Dunno y when i first hear this sentence i will think of tat someone... tat someone whom i never tot i will like..??? or cos is like in the show... i wanted to care for tat someone.. worry abt tat someone... like to be beaten by tat someone... like tat someone to be drunk so tat i can take care of her... hahaha anw it's jux a show....

well time to scold Gal Next Door le... hahahha COS UR STUPID SHOW KISS MY CHENG LIN!!!! ARAGGG ANGRY~!!!! 你祖母我不高兴！！！ cun wait to c the ending!!!! but den.... SO FAST 530AM ALREADY~!!! AND IS SUNDAY~!!! SHIT time to catch some rest.... will i have time left to dream of tat someone tn???

我怀念的

现在。。。

也只能怀念。。。

心已不在。。。

做什么也没有用了。。。

心有曾逗留过吗？？？

难道一切只是一场美梦？？？

那为何我得醒来？？？

为何不能让我一直梦下去？？？

虽然还是放不下。。。

但至少还有美丽的回忆。。。

唯一能做的。。。

也就只是怀念了。。。

想问为什么

我不再是你的快乐

可是为什么

却苦笑说我都懂

自尊常常将人拖着

把爱都走曲折

假装了解是怕

真相太赤裸裸

狼狈比失去难受

我怀念的 是无话不说

我怀念的 是一起作梦

我怀念的 是争吵以后

还是想要爱你的冲动

我记得那年生日

也记得那一首歌

记得那片星空

最紧的右手

最暖的胸口

谁 忘了

我怀念的 是无言感动

我怀念的 是绝对炽热

我怀念的 是你很激动

求我原谅抱得我都痛

我记得你在背后

也记得我颤抖着

记得感觉汹涌

最美的烟火

最长的相拥

谁爱得太自由

谁过头太远了

谁要走我的心

谁忘了那就是承诺

谁自顾自地走

谁忘了看着我

谁让爱变沉重

谁忘了要给你温柔

我怀念的

我还有想要爱你的冲动

我记得那年生日

也记得那一首歌

记得那片星空

最紧的右手

最暖的胸口

我放手

我让座

假洒脱

谁懂我多么不舍得

太爱了

所以我

没有哭

没有说

Stoopig Ade

Whenever im online during wkdays, she will ask me "R u on leave again?" so today i yawnz at her first b4 she asked me this... To my surprise she told me she tot of me this morn cos there's a guy in the meeting tat LOOKS like me, TALK like me and ACT like me~!!! jux tat not as skinny as i am... idiot de... hahha anw her next statement is still asking if im on leave... so i told her im on 2 days mc den she began scolding me again...

Ade was saying this yr was bad for her zodiac so i told her this yr suppose to be good for mine but it seems not leh... nbz she tot im monkey!!! try to explain she not good in such things but noe im scorpio... hahaha start to say scorpio are the worst horoscope... most vicious, most cunning etc... lucky when i asked her if she feels im like tat she says im not... so i told her im a disgrace to scorpio... 妈的 she said scorpio is the most romantic no wonder i felt tat im a disgrace... hahah im romantic de leh... anw super long no c her liao so next wk shld be meeting her for dinner... This is the last time we met took de... she keeping long hair again tat time... wonder now is longer, shorter or still the same...

hmm background too bright le cannot c clearly... take again next time~!!!

Running Away???

Dun feel like waking up at all... Keep on lying in bed and dozing off... If not my hp ring think i can slp all the way til late... A pity the sms is not wad im waiting for... If onli... Haiz cannot drink now onli thing i can do is to keep slping... At least in my dreams, im happier...