SMS

Dun wanna wake up so early and has been nuaing in bed for quite some time le... suddenly i miss the times when her sms woke me up... thinking and thinking til i doze off again... a familiar ringtone rings... is my hp sms... but... is not from her... and it will never be her again... time to wake up le...

Middle of the nite..

Purposely went to slp early.. So damn tired and dun wan to think anymore.. But y muz l be awake after a weird dream?!! Tosing around for hrs le simply cun get to slp.. Think and think also dunno think for wad shit!! WHO AM I??? I AM JUX NOTHING!!! THE MORE I THINK AND KNOW, I JUX FEEL WORST!!! I can onli be angry wif myself.. Y am I still so affected by it.. Is this my limit le?? Haiz how much more can I take??

only lonely

A very old song of S.H.E and has been following me all this while.. Has been thinking a lot lately.. Wad do I really wan?? Who will be there for me?? Happy moment jux dun last.. Alone, drinking, missing..

Feeling lost

Things used to be within my control... But now things are beyond my control... haiz the feeling simply sux... but wad can i do..??? or did i choose to do nothing..???

Excessive???

IM NOT EXCESSIVE DRINKER~!!! After reading this guide i finally can conclude tat IM UNDER CONTROL~!!! started to drink a bit again... still cannot decide wad i shld do... the dark mood is back... but as usual, y izzit the more i drink the more unhappy i gets??? haiz.... think cos i haven drink enough yet... if I finish this will my father faint or will he jux open another bottle??? hmm...

Lousy week

Had a very tired, moody and unhappy week... Dunno y it jux seems to happen every day now... Really makes me wonder izzit my prob... so i told myself no matter wad i will not be moody or unhappy today... but the biggest impact actually came today~!!! There are so many questions, so many why in me... Maybe i shld jux accept the fact... though i really feel very sad abt it, think i shld really try to change...

你死定了！！！

hahahah i like it when she say this line... somehow it reminds me of something.. wad actually is it i dun really noe... but is something sweet tat lies in my heart... hmm wad is the thing tat this line is triggering???

为设么要望记一个人会这么难？上天为设么要这样折磨我？

就算全世界的人反对我们，我也要跟你在一起。。。

不是我不想拥有，是我不能。。。

放弃我。。。

These are some of the sentences tat bring tots and memories to me... has been some time since a show can affect me tat much... and it reminds me of something... something which last time i always thought of but never do... 把回忆埋葬... going back to places and reminisces of the happy moments... after which i will forget abt tat person... hahaha but it seems to be like wad i tot.. i will not forget... instead i will jux miss tat person more... 我好想你喔!!! tmr mux find more pictures of Cheng Lin's image in this show... it really reminds me of someone!!!!