Weekend Companion

Jux wanna be alone, drinking and reminisce... dunno when it started and for how many wkends already... it has been part of my life already...

SMS

Dun wanna wake up so early and has been nuaing in bed for quite some time le... suddenly i miss the times when her sms woke me up... thinking and thinking til i doze off again... a familiar ringtone rings... is my hp sms... but... is not from her... and it will never be her again... time to wake up le...

Middle of the nite..

Purposely went to slp early.. So damn tired and dun wan to think anymore.. But y muz l be awake after a weird dream?!! Tosing around for hrs le simply cun get to slp.. Think and think also dunno think for wad shit!! WHO AM I??? I AM JUX NOTHING!!! THE MORE I THINK AND KNOW, I JUX FEEL WORST!!! I can onli be angry wif myself.. Y am I still so affected by it.. Is this my limit le?? Haiz how much more can I take??

only lonely

A very old song of S.H.E and has been following me all this while.. Has been thinking a lot lately.. Wad do I really wan?? Who will be there for me?? Happy moment jux dun last.. Alone, drinking, missing..

Feeling lost

Things used to be within my control... But now things are beyond my control... haiz the feeling simply sux... but wad can i do..??? or did i choose to do nothing..???

Excessive???

IM NOT EXCESSIVE DRINKER~!!! After reading this guide i finally can conclude tat IM UNDER CONTROL~!!! started to drink a bit again... still cannot decide wad i shld do... the dark mood is back... but as usual, y izzit the more i drink the more unhappy i gets??? haiz.... think cos i haven drink enough yet... if I finish this will my father faint or will he jux open another bottle??? hmm...

Lousy week

Had a very tired, moody and unhappy week... Dunno y it jux seems to happen every day now... Really makes me wonder izzit my prob... so i told myself no matter wad i will not be moody or unhappy today... but the biggest impact actually came today~!!! There are so many questions, so many why in me... Maybe i shld jux accept the fact... though i really feel very sad abt it, think i shld really try to change...